Got this from 's fournal.

<sub>If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it "I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears".

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.</sub>

I'm afraid of...

[] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

[] being touched
[] fire
[] deep water
[x] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's dad
[] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's mom
[] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow

[] rain
[] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[x] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[] clowns _{disturbed is the right word for this one so not afraid.}
[] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[] growing up

[] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secrets

Total: 14.
I'm perfectly normal, phew. Normal's good. I like normal. I love normal.
Meh, whatever.. I'm really busy with school but i kinda like it in an unhealthy(?) way, i guess. I mean all this time, it disturbed me but now that i know what i'm doing it for, it doesn't disturb me anymore. I'm really ok with studying, and/because i really want to go into İTÜ and be an industrial architect. And i've seen cataclysm videos and stuff and i really miss world of warcraft. It'll probably be out until i start playing again, so there goes my chance for being in nice groups when i come back. I was going to say something but i forgot it, so if you read this, thank you & bye.

Like i've said in one of my latest deviations, i've been questioning a lot of things these days. Other than that, i'm entering a very precious period in my life that'll certainly determine my future life and i've gotta study hard. Though, these days i feel very artistic and want to take new photoa and i have some new ideas too.

First, i want to work with people. I've never wanted to photograph humans before. Tried a few, but never really gotten into it. No one posed for me, i haven't asked no one to pose for me, and always got embarrased to ask a stranger to take their photos. Because of this, you can notice that all of my photos which subjects a human are taken from a distance. I've never been so close to people in my personal life too, so i think that's why. Always scared that people'll be angry with me if i take their picture.

Anyway, as soon as i got my camera back(it's broken and being fixed atm)i'll start with my plans and ideas. But there's a problem with that too, because i don't really like my camera. I know it's like one of the best that i can ask from my parents right now and i actually don't want to ask before college too, because i really question my photography a lot. I don't like most of them, but that doesn't mean i don't likw all of them. There are photos that i love but nothing gets enough attention if your gallery doesn't contain at least a few "nude photos" or a "personal photo of you taken from a height, shows part of your arm which holds the cellphone and of course, you sunglasses". If you want to become a little popular and have more comments or faves, you've to do that or mix your art so bad with textures, texts, brushes and then it becomes nothing. Not visual art, not photography, not anything. Just a picture of a meaningless item and lots of textures and brushes on it which'll make it more meaningless if that's possible. Of course that's nothing more than my own opinion but i don't believe that that's art. That's just a button and a photo editing program. Art means that you see something and create something new out of it, which makes people feel something even different than you'd expect. So that's why i don't actually understand why customization such as blends, icons and those kinds of digital art is not popular at dA. Most of them are much much better than most "naked lady" photos. More art, anyway.

Whatever, i'm not going to say that i don't actually care anyway, i do care. I just know that, which is the whole point, only a few people will see this journal and read these and maybe a fewer will share the same opinion with me or even understand what i mean.

Phew, i really don't know hot the subject got here. I just wanted to share my plans, that i want to photograph people and who knows maybe we can meet up someday, if you want to pose for me(i'm thinking about emotive portraits, fashion portraits, etc..), i'll take your picture. And as long as i start to do at least some of what i want to do, i will categorize my gallery. That'll be more appropriate and more professional. Today, , wanted to clear my gallery, and deleted a prose deviation, i wanted to do that anyway, but couldn't delete any of my photograpghs. I don't know why they're having so little comments or favorites but they're staying until someone tells me "They just suck. That's why." So if that, please tell me. Tell me something. Either they're good or freaking bad.

All of the customization section of my gallery is gone now, because somebody accused me with "art theft". Art theft? Really? Come on! That's really absurd now, I really can't understand all the your own stuff thing here. I mean of course it's a screenshot, if that's the problem. All the people who make wallpapers or icons use screenshots don't they? I mean we all can't go and photograph celebs on set or something? God, I wish i could go and take photos of the Impala with the Winchesters in it, but i can't. Because i'm not allowed. So, I want to use them on my msn, so i make an icon in a program(i personally use photoshop)and recolorize them, edit them, do some kinda stuff, and actually make it into an icon. Then i just post it onto dA like everyone else. Then i'm not allowed again. How in the hell is that art theft? I don't know if it's anything like that, but taking something and using it in msn is something maybe, but claiming it as ur own and thinking that it's me who stole it is another. And you know what we call it around here? Pure schizophrenia. Just go see a psychiatrist, or if that doesn't work, just go f**k yourselves.